half of you talk to my own boyfriend more than I do and I can barely muster the encouragement I need to for his problems and not monopolize the conversation with mine. you joke together. I whine about dumb shit.
feeling like im not there enough for the people I should be and I’m missing out on so much because I’m tired and I want to sleep and I don’t have time for myself or anyone else. and nobody wants to stay around for that and eventually they move to people who are always there.
sorry if I’ve been shitty lately.
i want to curl up in bed and forget work and sleep for three days.
but I’ll be getting on the bus in ten minutes. and I spend my mornings alone and I work a high stress job and then I want to sleep.
the man beside me is a certifiable jar of mayo who is throwing shit down on the bar screaming “how the fuck is that a lateral pass!! FUCKIN SHIT ON U REF THAT NEEDS TO BE REVIEWED ARE YOU FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK”
There are two men sitting behind me on the bus, screaming to each other to the point where my headphones can’t block them out.
""Your sister is going to sleep with me! It’s evolution, it’s not my fault. If you’ve got a sister, she’s got to fuck me! There’s a ten year barrier-ten yrs younger or older is all fair. It’s evolution you know?"
"You don’t bounce checks. My roommate bounced three rent checks when his mom was staying in our crib so I fucked her while she was doped up."
"Yeah bro, same thing happened with me. If you’re going to bounce rent checks, make me pay for the difference, you’ll find me fucking your girlfriend in your bed when you get home"
I am going to be sick.
Someone get me off this fucking bus.